.. there's another juncture

.. no matter how long the rain falls
...no matter how strong the storm is
there will come a time
when it shall decide to cease..





all we need
..is the strength to withstand it,
..the will to survive it,
..the faith to hold on to it..



i am so thankful
that through all these facets of life
through all the hurdles
i am still guided
despite my weakness..
despite my imperfection..



life could be so cruel,
unsympathetic,
pitiless,
uncaring,
cold and
insensitive..

but then
the method to face it
still lies within our own hands..



learning to find ourselves,
learning to widen our thoughts,
learning to hold on,
and maintaining the love..
that's all that matters..



i am thankful
for another juncture in life
and is hopeful that
someday soon
there'll be lesser steeplechase..

cheers...

Come Back to Me by David Cook

You say you got to go and find yourself
You say that you've become someone else
Don't recognize the face in the mirror looking back at you

You say you're leaving as you look away
I know there's really nothing left to say
Just know I'm there whenever you need me, I'll wait for you

So I'll let you go I'll set you free
And when you see what you need to see
When you find you
Come back to me

Take your time I won't go anywhere
Picture you with the wind in your hair
I keep your things right where you left them I'll be here for you

And I'll let you go I'll set you free
And when you see what you need to see
When you find you
Come back to me

I hope you find everything that you need
I'll be right here waiting to see
When you find you
Come back to me

I can't get close if you're not there
I can't get inside if there's no soul to bare
I can't fix you, I can't save you
It's something you have to do

So I'll let you go I'll set you free
And when you see what you need to see
When you find you
Come back to me

I hope you find everything that you need
I'll be right here waiting to see
When you find you
Come back to me

.. to my friends

in one's lifetime
friends will come and go
often, there will be those
who'll stick with you around
and there will be those
who may not be there anymore..

i am just so deeply touched
with friends who seem to be there
despite the miles
despite the time..

so grateful that
they care..

perhaps distance is a factor..
or perhaps
they just don't know me at all..

i love my friends
always treat them
the best i possibly can
but at times it pains me
when all the while
i think i am special
when in fact i am not..

probably i just expect too much
or i just thought
i could be special

nonetheless,
i am thankful
that there are still friends
who will be there
notwithstanding getting
anything from me at all..

sometimes everything
could be so harsh
but the overwhelming care and concern
may suffice it all..
and these truly amaze me
if i deserve it at all..



it's really a puzzle
if i am benevolent or not
if i know the right from wrong..
how i just wish i know the answers..

to my dear friends
old and new..
my utmost gratitude
i hope you will always stay there
no matter what the circumstances
may offer..

i could only return
all my love and care
no more, no less..

..to perish

i have have always been so baffled
with people who's so afraid in dying..
..more so with those who sympathize so much
with people who die early..

it's as if they're just so lucky
that they are still alive..
and those who left the world early
are such a loser..

you often hear comments like..
"look at them..
the reason they died early is because..yadiyada"
then follows with..
"look at me..i am already in my mid 70s
and still i am strong and alive"

Gawd.. this so pisses me off..
i simply don't see
why would those who departed ahead
have to be so commiserating..

don't i really make sense
when i say
that the ones still alive
like us..
are those
who's worthy of sympathy
since we are still here
to endure more pain and agony
that the world provides?



//sigh//
me?
i don't intend
to last long in this realm..
anytime the Lord (or whoever)
wants to take me..so be it..
i am so ready..

impeccable, i may not be..
but i believe
i have already done so much
in my best and own little way..
then the rest is up to
His own judgment,
not anyone else's..

my kids?
there will be no worries..
i know they can take care
of each other..
there's always
a reason and purpose for everything
and besides,
the Lord is responsible for
all occurrences,
as what have been told us..
then, what is there to fear?

those who already left us
are far more fortunate than us
because
they have no apprehensions anymore..
we may not know
what the other realm has to offer us..
but then they aren't here
to face more difficulties..

Life is indeed so amazing..
why should you make a world
where in the end you regret you made..


aaah..
questions..
perplexity..
bafflement..

guess, that's how it is..
and we have no choice
but to face it..