.. to my friends

in one's lifetime
friends will come and go
often, there will be those
who'll stick with you around
and there will be those
who may not be there anymore..

i am just so deeply touched
with friends who seem to be there
despite the miles
despite the time..

so grateful that
they care..

perhaps distance is a factor..
or perhaps
they just don't know me at all..

i love my friends
always treat them
the best i possibly can
but at times it pains me
when all the while
i think i am special
when in fact i am not..

probably i just expect too much
or i just thought
i could be special

nonetheless,
i am thankful
that there are still friends
who will be there
notwithstanding getting
anything from me at all..

sometimes everything
could be so harsh
but the overwhelming care and concern
may suffice it all..
and these truly amaze me
if i deserve it at all..



it's really a puzzle
if i am benevolent or not
if i know the right from wrong..
how i just wish i know the answers..

to my dear friends
old and new..
my utmost gratitude
i hope you will always stay there
no matter what the circumstances
may offer..

i could only return
all my love and care
no more, no less..