..to perish

i have have always been so baffled
with people who's so afraid in dying..
..more so with those who sympathize so much
with people who die early..

it's as if they're just so lucky
that they are still alive..
and those who left the world early
are such a loser..

you often hear comments like..
"look at them..
the reason they died early is because..yadiyada"
then follows with..
"look at me..i am already in my mid 70s
and still i am strong and alive"

Gawd.. this so pisses me off..
i simply don't see
why would those who departed ahead
have to be so commiserating..

don't i really make sense
when i say
that the ones still alive
like us..
are those
who's worthy of sympathy
since we are still here
to endure more pain and agony
that the world provides?



//sigh//
me?
i don't intend
to last long in this realm..
anytime the Lord (or whoever)
wants to take me..so be it..
i am so ready..

impeccable, i may not be..
but i believe
i have already done so much
in my best and own little way..
then the rest is up to
His own judgment,
not anyone else's..

my kids?
there will be no worries..
i know they can take care
of each other..
there's always
a reason and purpose for everything
and besides,
the Lord is responsible for
all occurrences,
as what have been told us..
then, what is there to fear?

those who already left us
are far more fortunate than us
because
they have no apprehensions anymore..
we may not know
what the other realm has to offer us..
but then they aren't here
to face more difficulties..

Life is indeed so amazing..
why should you make a world
where in the end you regret you made..


aaah..
questions..
perplexity..
bafflement..

guess, that's how it is..
and we have no choice
but to face it..