Fragments of yesterdays...

..portions, slivers, splinters..
Scattered just behind our thoughts..
Some so vividly perceived, recognized and classified
Some dispersed, broken so vague
But a handful completely wiped out,
Not a bit to grasp..
Entirely extinguished into thin air…

..moments so cherished then..
Could perish in a glance..
Nothing to relive..
Meaningless to ponder..
..all best left behind,
Shaken off and dismissed..

undoubtedly, there are certain memories
Worth to treasure,
Recall and reminisce...
But living on it and not letting go
At times could be so detrimental..
correspondingly as wanting to restore
pieces so long gone…

Yesterday has been so rewarding..
yet, it has become part of our past now..
for us to take note of,
.. appreciate and realize…

what matters now is how we dwell into the present
and treasure every second of it,
for as the time continues to tick..
all would then belong
to fragments of our yesterday…

...serendipity

Serendipity

..fate
...karma
..destiny
..providence
..coincidence
..accident
..kismet
..chance

We can call it in all names
…yet it boils down to one simple definition
..our luck, perhaps..

..i always believe that everything happens for a purpose…
…for a reason
..though it may be for a good cause
..or otherwise..

..everything was destined to be..
For us to take note of it..
..maybe no matter how many times the world reboots..
..whoever personality we become..
..we’ll always end up with the same person
..so designed to be with us..
Our match… our fate..

..i always question life’s impartiality
..why nothing goes in precision.. impeccably..
..why there are broken lives..
Lost souls..
But then,
I come to a settlement
..that entirety is how it was meant to be..

..what we want and what we desire
Sometimes get off the line..
..we just have to make the most out of it..

..we can always brew the best coffee
If we know exactly how we want it..
..how it should suit our taste..

..nothing is perfect..
Even if we measure the whole thing
..by teaspoon,
..by tablespoon,
..by cup,
..or by weight..
Still, some inconsistencies may arise..
..though it may not show..
..what matters most is
..how we respond on it
..how we would love the result..

..serendipity..
Fortune lead us where we are now..
And where we’ll be tomorrow..
ambiguities.. impediments may abound..
but this is how it was meant to be..
..we are where we should be..
..whom we should be..

It’s all a matter of working things out
Should complications surface..

..we were all built in pairs..
..seamlessly drawn for each other..
how to tightly keep the knot tied..
is what all of us should learn..
..not the untangling.. unleashing..
.nor the altering..

destiny lead us all through these…
..all paired in two’s become one..
.. let us not allow anyone
To ever despise this union..
..for this is our providence..
Our kisma…
Our serendipity..
And we can’t just simply deny it..

Life's Ricochet...

Life’s Ricochet..

Enigma…
Conundrum..
Paradox..
These are the facets of living..
..mostly beyond our comprehension..

..there are so many statements.. so many reservations..
An unending dilemma.. an eternal uncertainty..
,,no one knows why..
..ultimately, this is how it is…

Love is a commandment…our foundation
Yet, it seems to entail a lot of bewilderment..
..Perplexity.. misperception
..mayhem.. and later chaos…

--FAÇADE 1--
..the forbidden love..
A so-called love that sprouted out of nowhere..
So unexpected.. so instantaneous..
Yet so magical and so real…
..would give anything, conquer everything..
Insensible of whoever is being afflicted, insulted and wounded
..what matters most is the unconditional love they say
..unscathed.. unabated..

--FAÇADE 2—
..the pure love..
..untainted.. solid..
..a love so absolute, unreserved..and unrestricted
Yet belittled, despised, betrayed and scorned
..feelings being neglected
..being set aside for something unbounded..
Left so clueless..stumped and confounded

..ricochet of life..
Never really understood..

Love is the greatest,
but never seem to be well-defined
issues on what should be…what should be not..
..still remains a confusion..

Love and life’s selfishness..
..So cruel..so biased.. unreasonable and prejudicial
Nonetheless, one continues to bear with it..
And endures whatever the consequences..

Two facets.. two grounds..
both may be justifiable.. both may be unquestionable..
however, anxiety still remains..
what should be right and what should linger..

..whatever the case,
Souls suffer..
Though it was never intended to be..

Obstacles.. barriers.. hurdles..
They will always be present..
A seamless life.. ideal vivacity..
There could never be one..
..If in one’s self, one always long for one..

..sometimes solution lies within one’s personal satisfaction
...contentment for what there is..
And not asking for anything else..
No questions.. no regrets..
..could fulfill one’s aspirations..

..yesterday has gone
..and tomorrow is yet to come..
it’s best if we live for today
And never rely on the past nor worry on the future..
..for the day has a lot in store for us
To get by with all dissatisfactions..
Which often leads to unwanted decisions..

--MASQUERADE--
..sometimes it feels that
Lucky are the distraught and mentally-ill
..for they have the perfect life they want to be with
And the illusion they bear with..
..no hindrances..no hesitations..

..well..guess we have to vie..
with life’s ricochet…
..for no one will never really know
How one should contend with it..
…Flawlessly.. impeccably..
Immaculately..
Moreso, without a glitch..

The Climb...

I can almost see it
That dream I am dreaming
But there’s a voice inside my head saying
“You’ll never reach it”

Every step I’m taking
Every move I make feels
Lost with no direction
My faith is shaking

But I gotta keep trying
Gotta keep my head held high

There’s always gonna be another mountain
I’m always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be a uphill battle
Sometimes I’m gonna have to lose

Ain’t about how fast I get there
Ain’t about what’s waiting on the other side
It’s the climb

The struggles I’m facing
The chances I’m taking
Sometimes might knock me down
But no, I’m not breaking

I may not know it
But these are the moments that
I’m gonna remember most, yeah
Just gotta keep going

And I, I got to be strong
Just keep pushing on

‘Cause there’s always gonna be another mountain
I’m always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be a uphill battle
Sometimes I’m gonna have to lose

Ain’t about how fast I get there
Ain’t about what’s waiting on the other side
It’s the climb, yeah!

There’s always gonna be another mountain
I’m always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be an uphill battle
Somebody’s gonna have to lose

Ain’t about how fast I get there
Ain’t about what’s waiting on the other side
It’s the climb, yeah!

Keep on moving, keep climbing
Keep the faith, baby
It’s all about, it’s all about the climb
Keep the faith, keep your faith, whoa

my beautiful love story..

Thank You For Loving Me - Bon Jovi Music Code


the best thing that happened to me
is being with the man i so love..
why?
for so many reasons i can't decipher..

i love him because he makes me feel important..
he brings out the best in me..
he was so proud to show me to the world..

we were college sweethearts..
fate led us together..
although i have a boyfriend then,
destiny still found a way to bring us together..

we were soulmates..
very seldom argue on matters..
and we smoothly sailed everything
though how rough the road had been with us..

we stuck with each other..
through thick and thin..
i'm always there for him,
and he's always there for me..

whenever challenges faces us..
we always leave it to the Lord..
and surely He always provides...

we are so sweet..
never forgets to hold hands as we sleep..
cuddle in each others arms..
and whisper silly sweet nothings every now and then..

hug each other for no reason..
kiss each other at no cause..

we are in love..
and it's so wonderful..

lying in each other's arm in bed..
worrying not much..
because we have each other..
that's what we are..

to secure each other's feelings,
we always do things together..
walk things together..
passionately doing anything
in each other's arms..

how would you break a love that strong?

distance.. separation.. anxiety..
temptations..longing
in an instant could break it all..

sadly, some things just happen..
but i still believe it happens for a reason..
perhaps to further enhance
the burning flame..
and to realize more of what we have..

a beautiful love story
i will always cherish..
no regrets on anything..
aside from souls that could get hurt
on decisions that may arise..

i'm so lucky i lived with the man i love
and who so love me too equally..
no doubt about it..
nor uncertainty..
and i thank the Lord for it..

♥♥♥♥♥

Thank You For Loving Me

Its hard for me to say the things
I want to say sometimes
Theres no one here but you and me
And that broken old street light
Lock the doors
Well leave the world outside
All Ive got to give to you
Are these five words when i

Chorus:
Thank you for loving me
For being my eyes
When I couldnt see
For parting my lips
When I couldnt breathe
Thank you for loving me
Thank you for loving me

I never knew I had a dream
Until that dream was you
When I look into your eyes
The skys a different blue
Cross my heart
I wear no disguise
If I tried, youd make believe
That you believed my lies

Chorus:
Thank you for loving me
For being my eyes
When I couldnt see
For parting my lips
When I couldnt breathe
Thank you for loving me

You pick me up when I fall down
You ring the bell before they count me out
If I was drowning you would part the sea
And risk your own life to rescue me

Lock the doors
Well leave the world outside
All Ive got to give to you
Are these five words when i

Chorus:
Thank you for loving me
For being my eyes
When I couldnt see
You parted my lips
When I couldnt breathe
Thank you for loving me

When I couldnt fly
Oh, you gave me wings
You parted my lips
When I couldnt breathe
Thank you for loving me

.. there's another juncture

.. no matter how long the rain falls
...no matter how strong the storm is
there will come a time
when it shall decide to cease..





all we need
..is the strength to withstand it,
..the will to survive it,
..the faith to hold on to it..



i am so thankful
that through all these facets of life
through all the hurdles
i am still guided
despite my weakness..
despite my imperfection..



life could be so cruel,
unsympathetic,
pitiless,
uncaring,
cold and
insensitive..

but then
the method to face it
still lies within our own hands..



learning to find ourselves,
learning to widen our thoughts,
learning to hold on,
and maintaining the love..
that's all that matters..



i am thankful
for another juncture in life
and is hopeful that
someday soon
there'll be lesser steeplechase..

cheers...

Come Back to Me by David Cook

You say you got to go and find yourself
You say that you've become someone else
Don't recognize the face in the mirror looking back at you

You say you're leaving as you look away
I know there's really nothing left to say
Just know I'm there whenever you need me, I'll wait for you

So I'll let you go I'll set you free
And when you see what you need to see
When you find you
Come back to me

Take your time I won't go anywhere
Picture you with the wind in your hair
I keep your things right where you left them I'll be here for you

And I'll let you go I'll set you free
And when you see what you need to see
When you find you
Come back to me

I hope you find everything that you need
I'll be right here waiting to see
When you find you
Come back to me

I can't get close if you're not there
I can't get inside if there's no soul to bare
I can't fix you, I can't save you
It's something you have to do

So I'll let you go I'll set you free
And when you see what you need to see
When you find you
Come back to me

I hope you find everything that you need
I'll be right here waiting to see
When you find you
Come back to me

.. to my friends

in one's lifetime
friends will come and go
often, there will be those
who'll stick with you around
and there will be those
who may not be there anymore..

i am just so deeply touched
with friends who seem to be there
despite the miles
despite the time..

so grateful that
they care..

perhaps distance is a factor..
or perhaps
they just don't know me at all..

i love my friends
always treat them
the best i possibly can
but at times it pains me
when all the while
i think i am special
when in fact i am not..

probably i just expect too much
or i just thought
i could be special

nonetheless,
i am thankful
that there are still friends
who will be there
notwithstanding getting
anything from me at all..

sometimes everything
could be so harsh
but the overwhelming care and concern
may suffice it all..
and these truly amaze me
if i deserve it at all..



it's really a puzzle
if i am benevolent or not
if i know the right from wrong..
how i just wish i know the answers..

to my dear friends
old and new..
my utmost gratitude
i hope you will always stay there
no matter what the circumstances
may offer..

i could only return
all my love and care
no more, no less..

..to perish

i have have always been so baffled
with people who's so afraid in dying..
..more so with those who sympathize so much
with people who die early..

it's as if they're just so lucky
that they are still alive..
and those who left the world early
are such a loser..

you often hear comments like..
"look at them..
the reason they died early is because..yadiyada"
then follows with..
"look at me..i am already in my mid 70s
and still i am strong and alive"

Gawd.. this so pisses me off..
i simply don't see
why would those who departed ahead
have to be so commiserating..

don't i really make sense
when i say
that the ones still alive
like us..
are those
who's worthy of sympathy
since we are still here
to endure more pain and agony
that the world provides?



//sigh//
me?
i don't intend
to last long in this realm..
anytime the Lord (or whoever)
wants to take me..so be it..
i am so ready..

impeccable, i may not be..
but i believe
i have already done so much
in my best and own little way..
then the rest is up to
His own judgment,
not anyone else's..

my kids?
there will be no worries..
i know they can take care
of each other..
there's always
a reason and purpose for everything
and besides,
the Lord is responsible for
all occurrences,
as what have been told us..
then, what is there to fear?

those who already left us
are far more fortunate than us
because
they have no apprehensions anymore..
we may not know
what the other realm has to offer us..
but then they aren't here
to face more difficulties..

Life is indeed so amazing..
why should you make a world
where in the end you regret you made..


aaah..
questions..
perplexity..
bafflement..

guess, that's how it is..
and we have no choice
but to face it..

...failure

failure, i guess
is what i am all these times..
just realized it now..
no more happy thoughts..
no more illusions..

...lost

//sigh//
guess this is one instance
when i have to be all enthused
yet desolation prevailed over..

Life could be so callous,
loathsome,
appalling at times

there's just so many
questions,
anxiety,
uncertainty
and reservations..

that you'll never know
what should be
and what should be not..



do prestige and possessions
have to always materialize..

why do human beings
cannot settle and live
on the basis of love alone..

i always thought that
Love is the greatest
commandment of all..
that love berserk it all..



but when there's just too many
constraints,
too many experts..
how would you counter..

guess reality does bite..
and i will have to deal with it
for the time being..

..sprinkled tranquility

the weather today is..
just oh so languid
which made me sprawl and drowse
at the wee-afternoon hour..lol..



this is really odd..
one drizzly episode
on a summer season..



well,
at least it made
the ambiance a bit different
from those so hot previous ones..

i don't know,
but raindrops make it relative
with overwhelming emotions..



probably the mizzle
exudes as a plethora of passion
which directs
to different types of sentiment..

thus,
the feeling of
..forlorn
..wanting
..neediness



aaaah..
rain..
most likely we'll never really know
the reason behind
all these bewilderment



what's definite is
we'll get to see and feel the sun
as soon as the rain
ceases to fall..



wonders of life..
moments to ponder..
..really one amazing realm!

for the mean time,
let's just simply enjoy
one melancholy day..
and
the upshot of the sprinkle..



*********

binagoongang baboy..





feast on it.. hehe..

tête-à-tête

i just realized
that my last post was also
my last status at FB..(duh!)
which made it seem
that i intentionally stopped
on updating my blog
so as to emphasize on it..

uh oh.. i feel so guilty

and so uncomfortable..

in all honesty..
i am just so overwhelmed
with that subject
hence, the reason for the researches
and blog as well..

but i am still a bit cynical about it..
i may believe it with its veracity
yet in my heart and in my mind
the tête-à-tête is still a question..

nonetheless,
as i've mentioned before..
it's better to gear up
than to be sorry in the end..

let's just try to recollect
that there were too many doubtful minds
when noah built the ark then..

moreso, when he informed that
a great flood is coming
to wipe the entire civilization..

bottom line is..
..let's live a full life
..know our priorities
..love with all our heart
..give peace a chance

and to top it all..
leave everything in HIS hands..


***********

my own version of sisig..



a slow and sumptuous way to commit suicide.. Lol..

..self-perceptions

well i have been into deep thinking
with regards to what's transpiring globally..
and i just can't help but wonder
why is it so?

a lot of people have been affected
with this universal catastrophe..
and this is already proving
to be quite unreasonable..

hmmmm...
again, these are just
the product of my zany imagination..
don't want to wheedle in any way..
just thinking out loud per se..

how in the world could this disarray happen?
why o why does it affect the whole domain?
don't i sound reasonable when i say
somewhere, somehow,
those big companies out there
could and would have maintained their status?
i know it's a cycle thing..
but there would have been
a start point or end point..

so, what am i getting into?
well, i was just flickering on the idea
that isn't it feasible that these
big people might be into something?
could it be that they are investing on
a much deeper grounds?
one that will secure
their continued existence..

whooaaaa!
i guess this is pathetic thinking..
lol..
but then, no one can blame me for this
i'm just trying to mull over things..

perhaps, this is the result
of too much research
too much engrossment..
aaaargh..
well..

here are some clips
could be true, could be not...
no one knows..
but i always believe
that it's better to be aware
on what could have been going on..
that way, we may, in a way,
prepare ourselves..

so should it prove to be false,
no worries..
probably we have done so many good deeds
by then..

let's just enjoy our families,
our relatives,
our friends,
our life..
trust me,
nothing is much better..










********
chicken afritada..with a twist!





yum!

..crème de la crème

High School Life - Sharon Cuneta Music Code


i still have this hangover..
from being with dear friends
in person and online
last Saturday til yesterday..

we were still like kids..
teasing here and there..

and it felt really great
like our good old days..

which brought me to focus
to some of the cluster you'll encounter
on our crème de la crème section..

we have the famous&stunning..



the intellectuals..



the up-to-dates



the despairings..



Lol..<
to name a few..

aaaahh..
nothing can really beat
high school life..

little worries..
lots of laughter..
adventures..
camaraderie..

what's overwhelming is that
no matter who we became,
wherever we are..
wherever we have been
some still maintained
the personality
we once have been..

and this lets us travel back
to the moment in time
where we all were, once,
members of a great big family..

..chronicles

oh.. it's been quite a while
yet i'm still trying to get my senses back..
well, too many factors ate up my time
on the week that has elapsed..

now i can't seem to find
a way to start anew..
sigh..

well..
nonetheless,
not very often that
these situations happen..

..i just
..i must
..i have
to stand the pressure..
after all..
these are strains arising from excitement
as persons close to my heart
face diverse state of affairs..

♥ one ties the knot soon..

♥ one goes home for a vacation

♥ one starts a new function
and wants to land a new post


Life indeed is a tale itself
..different stories
..different achievements
..different serenity

and i am so fortunate
to be in the cast
of these individual's
own chronicle..

...nostalgia

oh.. it's always fun to reminisce
one's childhood memories
most especially
those HS experiences..



we were the graduating class then..
a classmate celebrated her 18th birthday
and we were invited
for a swimming spree



the venue's at cavite
and we were all so excited
as we had to commute all the way..
in order to reach the place..



everyone was excited as we mounted
the recently erected LRT..
laughter and giggles enveloped the train,
that we literally had to be silenced
by a voice-over from the line.. Lol



The travel was never a bore,
that i don't even recall
how we got to our destination..



swimming was held on a public pool
but as expected,
we occupied most of the space..
notwithstanding its depth
we seized on the 10ft-deep area..



i don't really know how to swim
but i am so audacious then..

the swimmers were adventurously
trying to reach the bottom of the 10ft water
that they had this thrill and gratification
as they fulfill their quest..



of course not wanting to be left out,
i requested for them to push me down..

the routine was to thrust you on the head
for you to easily reach the ground..
they said that the way up would be easy
as you will just automatically float up..



..there goes my turn..
the voyage down was effortless..
touched the ground so quickly..
but then suddenly..
gulp..wag.. gulp.. wag.. panic set in..
i can't seem to reach the top back
and nobody appears to notice at once..
Gawd! i really felt that it was the end..



Back up.. friends were already counting
and waiting why i wasn't up yet..
good thing they finally realized
that there could be trouble down there..
so one decided to extend back her feet
in order for me to reach out..
as one plummeted to assist..



whoa! that was close..
everyone was chuckling as
i finally showed up..
the incident was never treated as a serious one..
everyone just laughed it off..
in fact, it was never known at home..



adolescence..
this is just a part of it..
but looking back..
it could have been a serious one,
if there were no anxious friends around..



thank God i have them..
for i am still able to enjoy
the greater pleasure of life...